Do you know that quote which says, that you should always be yourself unless you can be an unicorn?
So let’s stay true to ourselves: I can’t be a unicorn, right? Consequent I just should be myself.
But honestly it was hard staying true to myself throughout the last months. The disturber of my mental balance goes by the name of Instagram.
Fun fact: Instagram itself made me realize it by a post which said the following.
“When you are browsing through these images on Instagram, just remember that real life is in your heart. Your smile. Your family. Your surroundings. Pictures will make you believe your are not enough. Like you need to do something more.
Something more exciting, be more physically beautiful, be bigger than you are. It’s a lie. A net of fleeting fantasy. You are real. You are beautiful. You are enough. Go be in the world and stop comparing yourself.”
I have to admit that I was jealous. That I wanted something more. I wanted to be like those girls which never have to worry about money, which travel the world and don’t even care and which smile away their sorrows in one single selfie.
But I’m not like this. And I don’t even want to be like them. I’m so happy about my family and my boyfriend. I’m so glad I’m living in this cute little attic apartment. And to be honest: as much as I love travelling I’m always going to be a homebody.
But do you know what? It’s totally fine like it. And I want to go further on this.
I need a change.
I’m going to change my Instagram and my blog now. At least a little. I oriented myself by bigger bloggers way too long. But I’m not doing this anymore. I love art, architecture, cooking and philosophy. I love reading books by Russian thinkers and I can’t get enough of black and white photography.
I feel proud of myself while wearing something extravagant in public and people can’t stop starring. I love my boyfriend more than anything else. I cry over good films and books and sometimes I overeat myself just because I love eating.
So what about all that? Why was I hiding my face for this long?
I can’t even tell. Sometimes I’m unsure and I become smaller and smaller while looking and listing to others. Always comparing myself and thinking that it’s not enough. That I’m not enough.
But it is enough.
I’m going to share more of my “enoughness” from now on.
And I really hope it helps a few of you out which feel their selves in the same situation.
Empower yourself! You are wonderful!
Lots of love,
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